it's the only way

still missing?
yeah, i think so.

Well guess what?
I'm fed up.
But I wont tell you,
Cause two can play this game.

You lie,
I lie.
it's that easy, sweetie.

I'm gonna love you anyway,
But I'm not gonna be there.
I'm not gonna tell you what I think,
And I'm not gonna help you.
I'm gonna let you screw this up,
ANd I might laugh and write a poem about it
Because that's the only way you're gonna know.

Just fix yourself for me.
Fix all of yourselves.

My new years resolution: Not involve myself. Not tell you anything substantial. Hide my tears from only you. Show you how it feels.


--MRS 12/31/06

Castles

upwards of this:

i want to move away,

fly to my castle in the clouds

and live where the people can't touch me.

i want to go back

to a time when it didn't matter

i wish i could just go

to a castle in the ground

and live where the people can't see me.

if only i could return

then i could see my mistakes

and then maybe i could be

in my castle in the ocean

and living where the people can't hear me.

perhaps, in my perfect world,

i'd be living in a castle that i built.

it would span the earth

it would cover everything

and only i would be allowed.

only i could go in because

only i can let me go.


--MRS 12/8/06

i miss you. that's it.

missing in action
and you dont get it
i'm there
i always was
but i guess
it wasnt
good enough
for you

and now i'm lost
and we dont talk anymore
and i dont
know what to
do about it

and i need your help
cause i dont know if i can make it to the kitchen

---MRS 11/30/06

i just need to say

i just need to say
that i think you're being stupid

i think you should know
that this hurts
this here,
this talking to you,
it hurts.

it's killing me to sit here
and to say this to you,
but i love you and i miss you
so come back soon.
you've been gone for so long
and i'm scared.

i'm scared that you're lost.
and i just needed to say that.

i think you're being really stupid.

--MRS 11/28/06

sleep

resist the temptation
dont fall into slumber
careful not to slip into unconsciousness
there are no nets to catch you
to stop you from succombing
to the the subconscious, deceptive hallucinations
that program and preprogram your opinions

and yet, despite your effort
to ignor the sweet lullaby
the drowsiness, all encompassing
eventually commandeering your awareness

--MRS 11/26/06