i'm sorry

i'm sorry.
forgive me please.
i'm sorry.
please.
you have to believe me.
the last thing
i wanted to do
was hurt you.
and i know that i did.
and i'm sorry.
know, please,
that i'm sorry.
and it hurts me too.
it hurts me,
this talking
and i just can't stop crying.

because i think that you're hurt.
and i care.
i do.
i genuinely care.
and i don't want to hurt you
by pretending i'm fine
and i don't want to hurt you
more than i have to.
so let's see if we can
just wait 'til we know
that we can make it.

i'm so sorry.
please.
please.
just forgive me.
just please understand
that i did this for a reason.
please understand
that i'm trying to give us a chance.

and please let me not be
just one of your exes.
i'm sorry.
i'm so sorry.
and it is killing me that you are hurt.
and i want it to be okay.
please just believe me.
please understand me.
please.
i'm so sorry.
and please.
please don't hate me.

---MRS 4/24/07