the tide.

"he's wondering what love is and why it has to end."

"heaven's not a place that you go when you die. it's that moment in life when you actually feel alive. so live for the moment and take this advice: live by every word. love is just a hoax so forget everything you have heard."

"he can't understand how everyone goes breathing when true love ends."

"but the sad thing is that they never lived past the age of fifteen due to neglect"

"all her advice, it seems useless."

"so live for the moment. and take this advice: love's completely real."

magnolia

i'm painting roses to give to you
because i don't know which you'd like
so i opted for them all.
maybe i'll plant you a garden aswell
of every single flower.
i'll paint them all
so you'll have what you like
and so that you can be happy.
i'll weed out anything
that you don't like.
this garden will be perfect.
no weeds, no nothing, no unpleasant flowers.
i will tend to it to make you happy.
so even when all the first flowers are uprooted,
i'll be painting roses to make you happy.

[[all until you accept]]
[[the unartificial version]]


----MRS 7/21/07

so...

so the selfish girl is back again.
i'm writing to no one
but hoping you'll read it
and i don't need you anymore.

so what were we all?
the time flew by and we called our lives fun
until one by one we dropped like flies.

we can't fix it now,
don't try. stop trying.
we can't be friends
because i don't need you anymore.

so after the year we drudged through
and the deceit we ignored,

i realized what we did.
everything that hurts is gone
because i hid it.
you hid it.
because it's ugly.


but i don't care if you aren't a beautiful person
i only care if you're a liar
i'm nowhere near perfect, and i don't expect you to care
so why would you think i'm so hypocritical?


then again,
i don't care if you ARE beautiful.


--MRS 7-17-07

and that's why i'm not gonna see any of you at the party

wtf

(i just found a folder of stuff)

Strings of Fate
we stood beneath the falling stars
showered with their guardian beauty
beside eachother, we whispered astray,
walking on eggshells.

do fireworks scare you?
the night was so dark.
watch the danger fly.
shield your eyes.
ghosts of honor spinning, wheeling
and dragons soar overhead

in the blink of an eye
the drums of our pride
share a beat
when the strings of fate collide.

---MRS


Just Listen
Listen.
can you hear it?
Listen. Just listen.

It's the sound
of torture.
Can you feel it?
Just listen.

It's the sound
of horror.
Do you know it?
Just listen.

It's the thought
of death.
It's for you.
If you'll listen.

Look.
Can you see it?
Watch. Just watch.

It's you.
Can't you tell?
It's you.
Just watch.

It's pain.
Can you see it?
Can you feel it?
Just wait.

You'll feel it
And you'll know it
And you'll see it.
Just listen.

---MRS '05

hope has no beginning as life has no end. Darkness overcomes you and, with it, yoru soul bends to take the weight upon it as a struggle from within.

--MRS.

display.

Dear whomever arose this plaque, this display;

There is nothing left inside that sould.
That soul out on display.
The one with the heart ripped out of the sleeve.
The soul out on display.

There is nothing left in the spaces of earth
To to try and reverse the effects---
the results of guilt, of tears and lies.

With nothing....but a display.
And the soul, the nothing on display
is empty...


----the soul out on display(MRS 04)

suffocating

lonely, heartless,
hurting, bleeding,
cold, unfeeling,
wanting, needing,
faded, empty,
sinking, healing,
broken, grey,
wounded, revealing,
sad, depressed,
seperating,
solitary,
suffocating.

----MRS 04

better

it's okay now.
it's better.
i want to be positive for once.

so i wrote you a letter
i mailed it out
but i don't know your address.

who's reading my words?

and those few who really, truely cared
are still there
they are closer
and they are with me
and i'm better
'cause they fixed me
just by caring
and by being there.

i shoo them away and they force themselves back
and i push them back
but relentlessness is key.
perseverance is key.

and i've got people now
who will last me for life
and who don't just want to talk about now.

important things
that i keep inside
they force me to tell them
and we let the truth out.


---MRS 7/7/07

my wings, my heart.

when the light is gone
and when all else fails...

silk petals faded, stained
browning leaves
beauty. beauty nevermore
and now, wither evermore.

future has turned to fate.

stepping onto the confine
i've lost my wings
they match my heart
when i fall, though,
you will give them to me.

why wont you leave me
to fall without my wings?


i'm afraid if you leave me
i will die inside
wake me up from your wicked dream
i don't want to be asleep anymore.

now, with no savior,
i wish my wings would renew.
but you took them from me.
both are gone.

----MRS '04

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(i found this today, but i have no idea when or whhy i wrote it. interesting)

and our flower was a daisy,
cliche and bland and perfect

did you ever notice those old
fashioned shots
children so posed and
photographers so satisfied

cute love.
posed love.
fake love.

---MRS